fallenxdesire

 So I didn’t get back into school...  And my day went from amazing to shitty in the duration of 5 seconds.  God I hate how stupid I can be the outcome I have to deal with because of my poor choices.  The only good thing about today is that I’m going to get ice cream with Bobby.  It’s the only happy thing I have to look forward to and it’s a great thing at that.  So why do I feel so shitty right now?  I want this crappy feeling to go away, and I want to urge to cry my eyes out to go away.  I seriously haven’t felt this bad in months and I was looking forward to not feeling it again.  But my parents know how to hit the

Today I’ve realized something.  Although I may be completely content with how things are going and how completely happy I am, there are still things that can hurt me without me knowing it.  I’ve just become invisible to the idea because I’m just so damn happy with life.  It’s been almost a year since I was this content with life and I can’t believe it’s finally happen.  I’ve got friends who seem to really care and actually like going out and doing things, I’ve met new people who really make me smile without trying, and I’ve finally taken control of how my life is going.  I’ll be starting my jo

So it’s like this; every time I meet a new guy I seem to always do something to make it to where I’m not longer seen in the sense of “future relationship material”.  I’m probably one of the only girls in the world who’d do anything (absolutely anything at that) for their guy but still I can’t get anyone.  I play miss nice girl who’s bubbly and happy and nothing.  I play the “I’m a bitch” card and still nothing.  Is there any chance for me?  Meeting new guys is supposed to be easy but I’ve had no luck in the whole year I’ve been out of high school.  But why do I care so much?  It